Appraisal and Boss.......

Most Awaited terms in Corporate Czar.I don't know y ...but true, boss is the 1 who holds u up at times and screws u up as well.. It was mid year by now and me getting mails to complete the Goals for my future...completely pissed of with what i had to do. never understood the purpose of Appraisal and its importance as well. and hence filled up whatever i did in project and left for the day..days passed like minutes and i forgot that there will be any meeting called as appraisal meeting... i was in the office that day in the afternoon...i had pretty awesome lunch by now. looking at my 17" Screen in the screen made me sick, and suddenly one pop up came in tat was form my Boss and subject read like this
Subject: " Appraisal meeting -- Discussion to be held in Meeting Room".

It opened my eyes to 270 degrees and then thought for a while " why this now?"..yawned and yelled at my colleague " look what mail i received"!!! Suddenly there was a hush--hush at my back, Bang....there he was standing behind me and gave me a weird look.. " Didn't you receive my mail? "..he said... ohh u have sent a mail? no i didn't see it.i was smart enough to mark that mail as unread.
" don't you want to discuss abt your performance?"... he said
" Damn why the hell i will discuss my own performance with you?" i thought for a while...
" Yeah, sure no issues", i said!
We headed to meeting room..and see what the name was " Shanti"...soch liya tha ke andar shanti ki puri band bajne wali he" lols..

we sat facing each other...silence for 10 mins... eyebrows were giving isharas..as if me and my girlfriend are in cozy mood..to break the awkwardness and to silence i gestured him saying " You called me, did any defect came for retest? any blocker issue? He said nothing and smiled. by that time i came to knw that something wrong is going to happen so just concentrated on him like a beggar waiting for him to shower some comments on me. There conversation started.
" Are you happy now?"
" Yes "
"lets recall your past performance"
i nodded.
" Your verbal communication is very good"! i smiled and thanked him.
" but you need to be proactive with your colleagues"
" what?" i said in my mind..
" you have got the potential to handle situation, but you need to take care while providing updates"
i muttered and said yes..
" You did very well, came at odd hours in office and supported, but you took 3 holidays while there was at-most necessity of yours in the office".
"you lead the project to go live but you missed the timelines.." what the heck? for the same reason i got an appreciation mail from senior management...
You kept the issue with you and did not cascade it to management?( if the issue was solved by me, why will cascade it to him.( he wanted to take credit)...Ego matters.....you need to think about these mistake and set goals so that you will never commit such mistakes again!!! as of now i am giving you avg rating. will think abt it at the end of yr.

Moral: If management decides to screw you up, it will screw you up????

Wen should i say i'm pissed of!!!!!!!

I am here to ask a few questions,
So where do you see yourself five years from now.
Wen should i say i'm pissed of!!!!!!!

I will tell you what I see,
I see you spending days and nights at work,
Staying away from your loved ones,
Ignoring them as they wait
Wait for you to come home,
A wait that ends with nights of loneliness
Spent away as you work.
Wen should i say i'm pissed of!!!!!!!

You live a life exploiting yourself,
Leave alone exploiting others,
Forgetting the very reason why you live.
Is it to earn millions?
Is it to complete a deadline on time?
To work, and work and just work?

Is this the life you asked the almighty for,
A life with no time for others
A life where you leave everyone behind,

No time to celebrate a family tradition,
No time to mourn the loss of a loved one
With a fake smile on your face,

Too occupied in deadlines and releases,
You have become a slave of your own greed,
A greed which forces you to treat people the way you treat yourself,
Without love, Without Sympathy,
Without affection.
Wen should i say i'm pissed of!!!!!!!

It doesn’t matter if you miss a family function,
But you would never miss a deadline

Life is much more my friend,
How can you life with yourself,
How can you not feel guilty?
You can fix the mistakes you made at work,
But would you be able to mend all the hearts you broke.

So five years from now,
Would you be a lonely soul?
Who has made up millions of bucks?
But lost millions of relationships.
Or would you learn to love, to care, to “Live”
Wen should i say i'm pissed of!!!!!!!

lonely.....

it is so often said that empty mind is devils workshop.....but wat's wrong in it?......i mean this is true.....well you will ask me why i am sayin this here. just because i am alone..here in this new city of dreams. and don't have any one to share some stories... first time it happened in my life that girls stopped talking to me(latter they started that's a different story). ..just because i am a fresher.....i have entered in the world of IT...where everyone have forgotten their personal lives....working till late nites...keeps you in a race...otherwise you are gone.....i am working in one of the MNC....but don't know till wat time i will be here.....12 hrs of job and 8 hrs of sleep...that's it...i feel like doing something new...but am not free as well.......have some dreams...but need some space......this is how i am.......